Ever just take a pause and realize that you're unsure of what really matters to you anymore? That if you took everything away, got flown to a different continent with no history of your past self, do you really know who and what you would miss most?
I'm just having one of those moments where I'm not sure what really matters to me anymore, and whether I'm doing the right thing day to day, or if I'm ignoring what's really important to me. I guess I'm just writing this down because... I don't want to just forget about these thoughts again, go back into automatic mode where I might not be paying attention to what's paramount to me, but rather what seems most important in the moment or what I'm 'supposed' to consider the most important by social norms.
I don't think I'm looking to discuss my own disillusionment here in the comments, but rather just maybe bring to attention the same sort of thoughts I'm having to the forefront of others' minds, because sometimes you really need to just 'wake up'.
This song is what triggered it for me:
I can understand that feeling.
There are days where you have like a blank mind and you don't know what you're doing, so you just let your own habitual schedule do the work for you while you have that blank-minded feeling. It is also that feeling that you have when you just don't really think about what is around you that you don't have that self-awareness.
I have stuff like that most of the time, mainly school mornings. So I think that it has to be that self-motivation of something that you've rarely/never done in your life that's gotta snap you out of it.
Otherwise, pilot-mode is only activated for me when either I'm really lazy, or that I don't have much to think about at the moment.
What I was referring to was less of small-time-frame sort of thing and more of a longer one, where you realize you've just been doing what's on your schedule and nothing else for a couple weeks or even a month without having broken it.
Perhaps what I'm referring to isn't as relatable as I thought it might be, but in any case that's just the mental state I reached the other night.
There are days where you have like a blank mind and you don't know what you're doing, so you just let your own habitual schedule do the work for you while you have that blank-minded feeling. It is also that feeling that you have when you just don't really think about what is around you that you don't have that self-awareness.
I have stuff like that most of the time, mainly school mornings. So I think that it has to be that self-motivation of something that you've rarely/never done in your life that's gotta snap you out of it.
Otherwise, pilot-mode is only activated for me when either I'm really lazy, or that I don't have much to think about at the moment.