Right now I consider my life to be "good". By good I mean stable, though that can get ruined so quickly. Family and school and whatnot. However some things have been plaguing my mind for a while and I just wanted it off my back so to speak.
1) I feel like my communication with people is a bit cynical and a bit of a downer. I feel like I speak to people in a *******y way, but that is just me being sarcastic in a sense. I seriously hope that everyone knows that I do care about them to the bottom of my heart, but some wont see that. All they will see is me being sort of a ****. And even worse is that people in school have been "jokingly" saying to call them if I ever shoot the school. It just pisses me off. I want to change myself but I want to also keep my self of "being".
2) I liked this girl for a while. I wont say her name, but she is younger than me and we go to the same school and the same club. You could say it is a crush of sorts, even if I make it blatantly obvious by hugging her from the back. But I had a history of "heartbreaks" like this before. I like someone, I cant say anything, and even when I try to, they leave. I guess you can say Im scared to lose another person like that.
3) Im lazy. I know this and Ive been getting better at this. But Im a Junior in High School, possibly the most important year while Im in the school, and Ive been ****ing up. My GPA is in the 80s, and it couldve been an 85 if I was not such a dumbass. I really want to go to college not just for the degrees and jobs and whatnot, but also for the experience, and I feel like I messed that up big time.
Ima just leave a link to a song Ive loved recently, and where I got the title. Elegy by Globus.
Peace. May life serve you well.
Yea Ferrum ima start to check them out more often.
The love is real here in this blog. :)
If you're looking for pump-up songs, go for Epicon.
If it's the melancholic one, go for Break from this World.
The love is real here in this blog. :)
2) My personal strategy has always been make good friends with somebody and then if you're both 'interested' in that way dating will soon follow. Try just hanging out with her if you can, it doesn't have to be romantic to start with.
3) I've been kind of ****ing up this year with grades, so maybe I'm not the one to ask. I did get a high gpa through high school, but (as I've mentioned before) I kind of regret not having done more interesting things during that time, instead wasting my moments on english assignments and chemistry exams, neither of which have any benefit to me anymore. If anything, my advice is that you should focus on something, don't do nothing. Do a long term project, join a club, be passionate about something.
It's been a **** year for me, so if anything my advice is that in life there are lows and highs. Don't keep telling yourself that if you do x you'll be happy next year, or four years from now, or eight. Try to do what makes you happy now, and not in the inconsequential "if I play smite for the next 8 hours I'll be happy" but more in the way of "if I ask this girl out, join a band and start a passion project I'll be happy."
Yea **** the system.
3. USA school system is weird... Didnt get a thing
Common core is nasty, you can get everything wrong but still get 100% just for "showing your work." Like you do realize some of us want careers that require a lot of hard math, right? And by punishing us for doing mental math will make getting those careers a lot harder.
2) Just try to talk to her. you're just gonna miss out, so why not? delaying it and just staring will just make you a bit more obsessive.
3) i don't know a single teen that isn't lazy. either they have no life, or they are just lazy, Mostly you should be working towards getting rid of that, but just stressing yourself out won't do any good.
also, don't try to be too pure.
the good guys finish last, Being good is one thing, but trying to find everything thats wrong about you is just stressing yourself out.
2.Actually same
3. USA school system is weird... Didnt get a thing