1. Do not try to be "friends" with me only later for me to not hear from you, or for you to be driven off by my overly-strange ways. Unless you feel like keeping up and including me in your mini Smite groups, then don't waste your time with me. That means no more using me as a discussion partner for your high school drama **** unless you want to actively speak with me (you know who you are).
2. I will leave my posting to a minimum for a little while, simply because I have little to contribute at this point. I play plenty of Smite, don't get me wrong. That does not mean that I will ignore bad guides, because I won't. I doubt many of you will bother to notice anyway.
3. If I say that I'm going to make a guide, I probably mean that it will be done after extreme amounts of procrastination. Therefore, expect it to get done but not anytime soon. I say this because I notice that I commit to a guide often, but don't do it.
Allow me to explain: I have a problem with feeling important. And I have attempted to be friends with a considerable amount of you. If I don't feel important (like the semi-selfish ***** that I am), then I achieve a level of emotional pain that I try relatively hard to avoid. My thoughts and perceptions of the world change dramatically.
This is me avoiding that to the best of my ability.
And it's because I care, whether or not whether or not I see your face. I like talking to you all, and I like your opinions. Whether or not I can express that in an appropriate way is my problem.
Let's make this clear: Not again do you need to tell me about my angry rants. If you can't put together that the reason I'm backing off is BECAUSE I am trying to prevent angry rants, then I really don't know what to say. Your tone is, whether you know it or not, a bit conceited, and I don't need to hear it again. I've told you, and you more times than most, that I am continuously working on my emotional ******** (which is exactly what it is). So do me a favor, and don't mention it again unless I get out of control, which is highly unlikely.
So let me re-phrase my statement, as best as I can:
Talenhiem, I have no problems with you.
RazeMage, if you have a problem I would love nothing more than for you to talk to me about it.
DarkJaw (and UnknownPandr), it is true that I really like talking to you and I feel like the same is not true. Whether or not it is because I'm extremely weird and obnoxious or because of some other unseen reason is not known to me. I could just be overly whiny, I really don't know.
Turnip: This should make clear just how I feel about you, and I will not say it again.
If you guys want to talk to me, at least put some effort in keeping up with me. Otherwise, there's a lot of wasted time.
One more thing: Yes, I know that I am probably blowing things way out of proportion. Maybe I care too much. I don't know.
However, I do not like the righteous attitude. So if you want to tell me something, at least act upon what you like to tell me and at least be decent about it.
I'm making a fool out of myself and I'm really done with it. This was a waste of all of your time and it's not my place to impose my **** upon you all. I'm deleting this later and that's the end of it.
I apologize. My grandmother, whom I was very close to, died last night. On top of that, I was feeling really alone and my emotions got the better of my judgment.
I'll delete this later when I'm done when my homework.
Anytime. Maybe act upon it and I wouldn't have to.
And thank you again, Turnip, for telling me everything I've already said to myself.
I'm glad you've admitted that you won't make a guide. I think it's perfectly fine to never make even a single guide here, but I absolutely hate it when people lie (even to themselves) about it.
When you comment on bad guides, do everyone here a favor and put more effort into your comment than they did into their guide. That is to say, don't just say it's, or even why it's bad, but how it can be improved. Also, try not to be so abrasive; the less the publisher feels like he or she is being attacked, the more likely he or she is to consider what you have to say. You always say you want to improve the site, but making angry rants on bad guides does absolutely nothing to help.
So to reiterate my response to the meat of this blog: I enjoy, for the most part, your company on this site. I could never consider you a friend, though. I'm sorry if that somehow so painful for you that you actively avoid conversation or discussion.
1. Do not try to be "friends" with me only later for me to not hear from you, or for you to be driven off by my overly-strange ways. Unless you feel like keeping up and including me in your mini Smite groups, then don't waste your time with me. That means no more using me as a discussion partner for your high school drama **** unless you want to actively speak with me (you know who you are).
It's me guys.
RazeMage: If I didn't want to listen to you, I would tell you. Trust me there.
Subzero: Dammit I'm 19 and in my fourth semester of college. Get it right.
Raventhor: I told Snub that he was being overly cocky and he called me a ****. I'm quite sure that I don't have an effect on his gameplay.
I didn't say that I was leaving. I am backing off in part, that's it.