Not because it makes it awkward to the people you meet - just ask Jararo or Dark Jaw - but mostly of the way you think about yourself. I'm lucky - I'm only diagnosed with Asperger's, and not full-on ASD, but it still feels like I'm obviously low functioning. Everything I do, I question it. It's gotten to the point where I just sit back and watch stuff, under the philosophy that if I embarrass myself by doing anything, then I might as well do nothing at all. Thus my lack of real-life friends.
Now, I know that I've only been on SmiteFire for how long... a month? Maybe less? and I've already got in contact with two people, both of which are probably looking at this and thinking, "Is he joking?". It really doesn't show, does it? not even in real life. As a said above, the largest factor for me is the way I think of myself. To try to put you in my shoes, just take everything that you consciously notice about yourself and what you do, and ask, "What does everybody else think? What if they don't agree?". Thus, I practically never wear graphic T-shirts in public, never engage in anything until prompted, etc.: because I think that EVERYBODY is judging me. Case in point: Whenever I talk with Jararo, I wonder whether he enjoys the conversation and my sporadic questions, or whether he thinks that it's just a waste of time, that I'm more of a thorn in his back than anything else. Don't mistake this for depression: I've been there, and this is something completely different. And please don't comment loke "aww, now I feel bad", because I'll probably think you're joking.
I think it's time I ended this rant. Otherwise, I'll go on and on and on and on and on...
tl:dr; I'm autistic, it's barely noticeable, and I hate it.
I have around the same problem too you know....
Considering i have a lot percentage of paranoid in the personality disorder test, i always worried if what i said is boring or what i did hurt people A LOT. Though, i always tried to think positive and try to enjoy my life >_<
Somehow i felt that smitefire has become a very good sharing site (which i loved very much) especially with our still "small" group
Though, i love your post, it's fun :)
Let's talk if you want skype : razemagex
You're not the only one who deals with anxiety and depression. I've dealt with it my whole life, and it has gotten me into more trouble than you can possibly imagine. I've almost lost friendships because of it.
I also have, despite what you might think, a considerable amount of patience. You have my Skype, so don't be afraid to talk to me.
And if they are extremely critical of your actions, well then they're just pathetic and are looking for a way to get their own attention off themselves.
Also let me state that if this has anything to do with my comments on new guides, stating that I dislike the actions of you and some others "calling for the Natsu Missile," it has nothing to do with you, I just dislike people relying on others to explain the reasoning behind their own criticism. Whether you take/took it as insulting you, just know that I don't ever mean to insult anyone, but I like proper discussion rather than simple statements. That's not to say that I care if I hurt anyone's feelings, but I don't actively try to.