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ranting to myself, about my predicament.

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This is a collection of thought threads I've had relating to my predicament at the moment. I thought that you guys might want to see them.

--- ...This isn't impossible. I can turn this around. But there's something stopping me - what is it? I am fully capable of doing this, but the same thing that makes me procrastinate is keeping me from reverting it. Self-defending... this isn't gonna be easy. --- ...OR, maybe, this chronic tiredness I have isn't a result of what's happening, it could be a message from the part of me I don't understand. To relax, to let it go... it. IT. Not all. What is "it", then? I'm holding on to something, and that something is causing this, an unknown philosophy or something. A Berlin Wall that I'm defending without realizing it. But WHAT IS IT?... --- "I'll send an S.O.S. to the world/Message in a Bottle"... where is that from? wait - that might be what I need. Send out an S.O.S. to the world, call in everybody who I'm close to and who I think can help, to t…
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First-world problems, small rant, and a notification

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addiction | depression | inactive | noonereadsthesedothe

So. I seem to be losing more and more control over myself every day. I find myself not caring about anything, be it school, homework, scouts, even Smite. I scream at my mind to care, but it doesn't listen - I still put my head down in classes, still completely ignore my homework, still don't care, and it's driving me INSANE. I saw my interim for my Chemistry class, and it was a 30~%. That is unacceptable. I tell my mind that THIS is what SHOULDN'T happen, that THIS is what happens when you don't LISTEN, but the scary part is, my mind doesn't care. My consciousness has officially come apart from my mind. They are officially two different things. My mind is what controls everything I do, and my consciousness is me, what makes me me, and my consciousness is yelling at my mind, and my mind doesn't care. It seems that the only thing that I have left in my control is my words, and sometimes not even then.

After I described this to my dad, he said that I was showing symptoms of both a mild a…
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Tal: 1 Procrastination: ∞ (but I got a point...)

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I FINALLY FINISHED MY GUIDE!!!

Despite my reputation for not following through on things, I somehow managed to complete something for once.

If you want to see the guide, here's the link: Here!

I can expand the items section a bit more, but I think it's good enough to release.

Sorry for the spam, just that this isn't showing up in the "New Guides" hometab, and that I'm more than a little excited.

just...

CLICK IT!!!

Procrastination - WHY DO THIS TO ME?!?

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2 | DotA | Guide | Procrastination | Ra | Why

I have a very bad habit of starting something and not finishing it, without a reason.

Except now, I have a reason for procrastination on my guide (dont hurt me jararo):

There's a guy in my health class who I introduced Smite to. However, he was as into DotA. So, we made a deal: we'd be each as interested as the other person in their MOBA. So, he tried Smite. He liked it, but he found it hard to let go of the top-down perspective. So, I'm keeping my side of the deal, and am now spending some of my time playing DotA. I'll prob. play it for a solid week, then integrate into my life alongside with Smite (it really is fun, longer games, more kills AND more deaths - where else can you go 8/8 as a support/ganker [Io]?). The guide isn't dead - only a victim of procrastination. It will be finished.

Ok, now you can comment, jararo.

Passive Foruming is Passive

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Alright. I have two things planned (and one of them half-executed, though it's starting to die) to boost my knowability in this forum. They're a little backdated, but I will get them done.

1.) a complete, accurate Tier List (forum thread I made for this purpose almost died, link here: https://www.smitefire.com/smite/forum/general-discussion/tier-list-of-the-people-2452?page=3#comment-28521)

2.) a Ra guide (and maybe some other Solo lane-viable gods)

I just need to learn BB coding...

ranting to myself, about my predicament.

First-world problems, small rant, and a notification

Tal: 1 Procrastination: ∞ (but I got a point...)

Procrastination - WHY DO THIS TO ME?!?

Passive Foruming is Passive

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